~orion~

I’m not sure how to start this post … maybe I’ll come back and write a gripping hook

I have this interesting conundrum and I don’t know if other people have this problem. Ok now that I think about it I know other people have this same thing going on. Looking back and currently a lot of the girls I am attracted to I know are bad for me, yet for some reason I am still attracted to them. Why is that? Maybe I’m attracted to the challenge. Maybe I’m attracted to her because I want to make her better. That doesn’t really make any sense to me though. Why not just find someone that I don’t need to make better? Why not just find someone that is already awesome? A subset of the girls I’m thinking of I know well enough to pretty well conclude (and usually verified by my friends) that the two of us dating would be a bad idea for one reason or another. Yet I’m still attracted to them for some inexplicable reason. As someone who is left-brained it confuses the piss out of me (not literally cuz that would be weird).

This whole thing reminds me of how attraction is not a choice. Which is also really weird. You don’t really pick who you are attracted to, you just are. Why is that? What in our heads turns that switch that says “yes, yes you are attracted to her.” Further, how is that defined/determined? I don’t think you are born with it, so it comes from something as you grow up … but what?

I don’t where I’m really going with all this …. sooooo discuss!